First Impressions…

I’ve decided to make a post in response to the last comment, where you raised an interesting point on how Muslim countries can deal with diversity. The first four paras are what I’ve already written to you, so you can skip them. Ever since I saw this tweet, I wanted to write a post on this, and I thought I would take the opportunity here.

A couple things I want to point out first-

a) I would most probably be the kind of person who wants to go to a cinema AND not want to miss the prayers. Like that lady, obviously. In our religion, you pray TO the God, you don’t pray for attention- that itself is spoken against of. You don’t ‘flaunt’ your deeds.

b) This woman is sitting in a corner praying, and in my belief, because the time was running out to go to her house and THEN pray and by then the required time to do the salat will have ended. Which, if I were at a cinema and late to go home, something I WOULD probably do.

c) My father once prayed on a moving bus with an extremely congested seat where he couldn’t comfortable place his legs, but he prayed through because he was getting late to go home where he could’ve prayed alone. He had to bend in an uncomfortable way, sitting right beside me, and pray because that’s all he could do then before time for salat ran out. Our family had to pray multiple times in public just because time was running out for the prayer-time to be over.

d)Cleanness in salat is very important. Notice that she sat on a chair instead of on the ground, so it showed that she needed a clean space to be able to pray (not to mention, all the other parts of salats that involve putting your head to the ground). It’s in Canada, so it’s obliviously not a place where there are prayer rooms, it being a secular country.

Alright, now that I got those our of the way.

I believe people from every religion should be able to pray whenever they want- because…..they’re just praying. It doesn’t have to do with you or me. And not every country can accept public prayers. I doubt that anyone from other religions would be able to freely pray in a strictly Islamic state.

I just want to say-  I am not here to represent a group. And I believe a lot of my other Muslim brothers and sisters would agree that we are individuals with our individual qualities. We are here to represent ourselves, with our individual deeds. Not to show for a group. No one is responsible for anyone’s deeds but themselves, as spoken of in our religion itself.

I know that Canada is an awesome country, it’s the one hope I had after US had those two candidates. I know Canada pretty much rocks! And it’s for those reasons I want to go there because opportunities in countries like mine aren’t much. Anyhow…

And I do know this- When in Rome, do as the Romans. I would know this best in my own country where certain things, which are totally fine in other countries, are not okay here. Does not mean I agree that people shouldn’t be allowed to be themselves- my personal value is that as long as it doesn’t have anything to do with me, let them be.

But the main point of this post is, what one group from a faith does- isn’t a reflection of the entire faith. The man in the tweet was pointing and going, “Oh, look. An immodest flaunter, we have!” It seems like over-generalization is his thing, AND that’s fine with me, as long as you don’t inflict on my rights. As with praying as long as it isn’t going against with others’ rights. Again, that’s my thoughts. And what other leaders do isn’t a reflection of me or many other Muslims.

Well, I think that’s basically it. I know, I wanted to end this post really nicely, but that’s all I could do 😥

Other than the whole, “I ain’t no one’s likeness, I am too good and uniquely fresh, you know you want to be a Mon like me” (Joking! About the last bit) I was just wondering how easily it could’ve been me or my own mother that was praying there. And then this stranger with a video-camera would record and make such big statements. All I’ve learnt from that video is, even if I can’t find a prayer room or a quiet place to pray in Canada- if I sit quietly in a corner and do pray, it’s not going to be okay (in such an advanced country, which is kind of a shame…….please don’t judge me! I am nice!)

When in Rome, do as the Romans. And now that I learnt this, I now KNOW I can’t do it. That’s fine. But these rules should be spoken of in that country, made more clear of- people should do something about it. Instead of judging on a women sitting knees bent on a bench. The man who tweeted that video has a lot of followers. More than me! It’s sad, I am more fun and less not-fun than that guy. It’s not fair. I am less judgy on first meeting with people. Karma shouldn’t ignore m, that bastard karma.

I hope you got the answer from this lone-y. You are quite right in your statement that Muslim countries are much stricter. I won’t disagree, I know it so well! But the main point being- no group- whether it does good or bad- does not reflect how good or bad I am. I really wanted to say something in response to the guy who was spreading such negativity- that Tarek guy on twitter- you’re a mean one Mister…..I know the me also being someone who can trust the media without doing research, but really……you know, we’re all individuals. I am an individual, what I do doesn’t reflect anyone other than myself.

I was very scared of posting this because…you know…politics and stuff. But please no mean comments, I honestly cry over things people say to me online (I am dead *sniff* serious!)- don’t go breakin’ my heart; you could if you tried.

Vulnerability Series: 1

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In this series, I open my heart more; I will share some of my deepest thoughts. I will put these in the rants categories 😮 These will be a bit messy as I share my thoughts as they come. This will be my totally imperfect, vulnerable side other than the happy bubbly person you guys see, that’s also a part of me, but this is the secret (not so secret anymore) part of me. Please don’t judge, these are simply my thoughts expressed openly. If you don’t like them, what are you doing here?

I want to appear as this sweet girl so people love me. I just can’t be afraid to be weak so much. Every moment I just want to cry. I just want to be somewhere there’s nothing to be afraid of.

Where can I not be bored? Where everyone is interesting and doesn’t talk superficial bull?

I want to play. I want to make weird noises. I want to be safe without my hijab.

I hate Lolla. Lolla is a bitch who doesn’t care about anything. She even kicked me when I said something I “wasn’t supposed to”- though she did apologize, but she is still a bitch. She even made fun of me when I tried to hug her before and was all, “Hey, wow, I am not bi too!” Is she flattering herself?

I hate men. Not good men, but those who don’t see me as their equals but as some object. I hate them. I want to ask them how many times a day they screw their own mother too because their mother is a woman too. I want to ask them how they’d feel if I screwed their mother. Ha, I am bi. But whatever, I don’t do bi sh*t but whatever, just to see their reaction. “I looked at your Mom the same way you looked at me” They’d be mad, they’d hide their anger and give a fake laugh, but they’d be mad. They’d want to beat me up if I did an inch of the things they did to their female family members.