I feel sad because I am not feeling sad for Uncle.I think it’s because of the distance between us, he is out of the country. I felt the same way when I saw Grandmother’s “casket” by the door. I knew she died, but until I saw her lying there on the bed not breathing, I started crying.
The doctor says it’s the kind of cancer that makes a person’s life-span shorter.
So Uncle isn’t living long. I don’t know what to do when Uncle comes back to the country. He is always so fond of us kids. He always liked me and thought I was this really sweet girl. Everyone thinks that because I am so quiet.
I might not post as much this month and the next, or I might. I don’t know. I’ve trashed all my scheduled posts but they are still there, in the trash section, all safe.
I don’t really know how to feel. At first when I heard the news, I was just shocked. Utterly shocked. Now I am not feeling anything for him. I think it’s only for a while until I see him that I will feel sad again. I shouldn’t question my feelings, or lack of them, so much.
I’ve been studying all morning, I have to take a nap, make some coffee and then go back to studying again. I haven’t been so quick at replying back to comments, but I will reply to a couple a day- I am not ignoring any of you.