I don’t remember why I started even writing this. I am at grandma’s now be cause therapy place is closer from here and we needed a place to ctash at. But Mom being the controlling narc forced us to come to Grannys’ way early. Me and Dad both wanted to rest while she just wanted to visit here so she kept quiet about the time of the therapy until I got inside the CNG and her mouth slipped the secret. Ugh.
So now I am here early. I don’t hate granny but I don’t have anything to say to her be cause…. I don’t even talk to people my age and what am I supposed to talk to her about? I also can’t understand her and just smile and nod whenevr she is talking be cause I feel guilty for not visiting her often even though I live far away but still…. ahh! I am at grannys’ AND on my phone. I feel like crap be cause she cares a lot but none of us have anything to say to each other. I am not like my extroverted cousins who can go hours and hours yalkibg with granny. Sometimes I wish I wasn’t such an inny person