I haven’t been studying for a long time. I don’t want to take more pills because…….. I don’t want to rely on pills 😥 People don’t understand what it feels like to have to take pills to keep your sanity.
If I don’t take my pills the rest of the if something happens the blame is on me for breakdowns. Mother says we should go to the psychiatrist to add more pills because she says have become more depressed because haven’t been studying. I think I don’t want to study because I don’t feel very fit. I don’t know.
I want to be normal. Less afraid. Less….. m.. m…. you know. I use that word all the time. I am so mental. I wish I wasn’t.