“She’s Mental”

I had a friend in disguise.

I told Amla a secret because I couldn’t handle it anymore. Mental deseases are no joke. I didn’t know Amla but I wanted to tell something. Something. I was alone. I might have a friend to share this with. Amla said, “Don’t worry, trust me. I am your friend”

“I have OCD”

Within the next week I see my stupid nickname they gave me on the walls of the hall along with the words “Nutty”. I went with this label a over two years.


61 thoughts on ““She’s Mental”

  1. Larry says:

    That was so thoughtless of your friend, but even good people can do some pretty hurtful things sometimes, especially if they feel scared and insecure about their own mental health (for the record, I have ADHD, depression, anxiety, but they’re fairly well managed). Although after that incident it seems like the last thing you’d want to do is open up to anyone, it’s so important that you continue to be frank and honest about yourself. Could you lose friends? Yes. Might people think you are strange? Of course. But if you’re an open book with everyone, once the people who you thought were your friends are gone, the people who remain are going to be those who really care about you and will stick with you through good times and bad times; people who will enrich your life for a long time.

    • Mon โ˜  says:

      It’s kind of funny. The boy who told my secrets, I suspect had a problem of his own. I often saw him talking to himself. It’s kind of funny when I think about it. But yeah, I do share my problems with those who are trustworthy. Thank you so much Larry for the concern and the positive encouragement. When I shared this with my family they just laughed and told me to not be so dumb next time.

  2. Carl D'Agostino says:

    People still snicker at mental health issues ? They are really so far behind and out of it. THEY have a big disorder. Me – anxiety, bi-polar, chronic depression and recovering alcoholic. There I’ve come out and living the best I can and succeeding and poo poo on what anyone thinks. Be brave. Thanks visit my blog.

  3. hallenterprises132 says:

    Glad you were able to get an actual diagnosis! At least you have a little knowledge now about your particular flavor of insanity!

    I have a combination of anxiety, depression, on top of multiple sclerosis, scoliosis, and asthma. They all feed off each other! It’s a great party when the whole gang gets fired up.

    This to shall pass, when we all end up six feet under! Just thought I’d cheer you up. Let them put graffiti where they want. Make sure you video tape them doing it! Then you can slip the tapes to the people in charge, either anonymously or to their face. You get to choose how you spill the beans.
    Jeanette Hall

    • Mon (is a Girl's Name) says:

      Thanks, Jason!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  4. miusho says:

    I don’t think it’s a bad thing to have but from your previous post she seemed like a pleaser. Tell her anything and everyone will know because she wants people to like her.
    It sucks that she used you. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

  5. aksabellotester says:

    You’re friendly Amla has a peculiar disease too. She’s insecure.
    Shit happens. People like that don’t really understand what they’re doing. Most of the time its because they don’t know anything else outside of their own little world or normality.

    Being OCD is not a mental disease. Everyone has their own obsessions and habits. I’m impulsive and I love shopping whenever I can. And if I can’t get what I want then I make sure to do the work to get it. That’s obsessive enough as it sounds.

    Anyway, You’re friend Amla has her own issues. You need to deal with your own. I’ve been through that phase a-long-long time ago. And it’s normal for little girls and teenage girls to do that especially if they’re too immature and insecure, and haven’t lived their life to the fullest. Mostly repressed and depressive.

    So learn from that experience and learn where to put your trust instead of giving it away for free. Amla may be your friend but she’s also the reason why you’ve been bullied. Don’t put up with those kind of people and cut them out of your life for the sake of your sanity.

      • aksabellotester says:

        Whether its a boy or girl. We’re all humans and we have our own peculiar sets of issues and insecurities. It doesn’t matter how big or small we are if we don’t respect other human beings and living things equally they’re not going to respect us.

        But most importantly cultivate your own sense of self and respect yourself first before respecting anyone. There is always a limit to every relationship whether it familiar or intimate. Always learn to put your trust in a safe place and not for free.

      • Mon (is a Girl's Name) says:

        Yes I know. ๐Ÿ™‚ Thank you Dearie. I have been working on cultivating my own self-confidence the past two months, it’s a work in progress ๐Ÿ™‚ โค Thanks a lot for the care and concern โค

  6. theonlysup says:

    Mon .. now i hear you talk . it is indeed tough to accept about our disorders. but when we share it with someone so close i feel its natural to feel let down when they make fun of it. but more than that i want you to know you are resilient too. .. you have this ability to fight the OCD and smile again .. not to show some one else . but for your own betterment . forget that amla . if possible forgive her or detach yourself with negative people

  7. syreal17 says:

    You are so not alone! There are many more people who have mental disorders than you’d think. And those who mock the diagnosis have the worst diseases of all.

  8. Tony Burgess says:

    I like the new look my friend. Some people can hide their pain and “mental issues” very well while others wear it on their sleeves. I think it can be a matter of pride.

  9. Wide-eyed says:

    Frankly I think OCD is pretty darn wonderful–I mean obviously it isn’t for those who have it, but I always thought it was really wonderful. I have slight OCD, according to my psych teacher, everybody does. I think Amla, whoever she is, is not a very nice person. Not very nice at all. Hardly think it warrants ‘nutty’ (no disease does, really)

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